i-is-Roxas

I really need to update. And I will soon...just not right now. xD


Don't question this journal, guys. > n >

"Hey guys, what's goin' on?" (<--I think this officially became my 'phrase' of the con.)
So anyway, really now - I just got back from AB and it was AMAZING. I had SO MUCH FUN, I wish it hadnt come to an end so quickly. :c

This year I roomed with , , , , , , and a few other people. We stayed at the Marriot and had two adjoining rooms, which was pretty sweet. They were all really amazing! I love them all. <3 They were super nice and awesome to hang with. Couldn't have asked for better roommates.

Now let's break this down by day, shall we?

I arrived on Wednesday. My friend's sister drove us all up and we picked songs to play from youtube on my friend's ipod, singing along with them like crazy people. It was awesome. ;D When Jizz in my pants was picked, I jizzed myself. B| The ride took about 3 hours and we shuffled into the Midtown Hotel. I stayed there with my (other) friends for a night before meeting up with Pidge and everyone else.

Thursday I didn't really cosplay. Or maybe I did. I can't remember. fff. I'm none too bright, guys. But I preregged so I was happy. We again sang annoying songs while in line. It was epic, and Im pretty sure the people in front of us hated us by the time we got our badges. :'D

FRIDAY:
Friday is a bit of a blur to me, so I guess I'll try to piece it together as best I can. I cosplayed as Kairi for a good portion of Friday. I hung out with my roomies, especially Pidge a lot. We just generally walked around. A lot of people wanted pictures when we were all together, though Im sure that's just because everyone else was amazing. Had nothing to do with me. xD They had a private photoshoot, and I tagged along. I got to be in a few pictures, but I didnt want to ruin their amazing shoots, so I mainly stayed to the side. It was FREEZING out there with the wind and the dress and the shortness and the slutty-ness, and the yeeeeah. D8 So they all kinda worked together to keep me warm. <3 I appreciated it. 8D Especially Xaldin because he let me in his coat which was super warm. |3

I also changed into England later that day. DRUNKEN ENGLAND. And I walked around with who I was so incredibly happy to have met. I talk with her online a lot and I totally love her. <3 She's even better in person. ;D I let her borrow my American flag boxers, which Im ETERNALLY GRATEFUL to MYSELF for bringing (solely with the intention of letting her wear them, of course. :3 ) because she was drunken America with me. We ran around the con, basically ALL WEEKEND shouting "AMERICA/ENGLAND LOVES YOU." and asking people who they liked better, America or England. (MOST PEOPLE SAID ENGLAND BTW. 8D ) We also got into little play fights, which a lot of people enjoyed and took pictures of. GOD, I FUCKIN' LOVE THAT GIRL.<3
We also went to the rave Friday night. Not even five minutes into the rave, we got hit on by some real creeper who was offering for us to come to a 'party' at his hotel with boys and alcohol and didnt even care that I was under 18. B| We left promptly after that, the music was crap imo anyway. After leaving we ran into this epic group of Hetalia cosplayers, who we proceeded to sing many songs with in the middle of the hall at say, 1:00 in the morning. Oh, it was so fun. Did I mention that I never get tired of singing the Pokemon theme song? I must have sang it at least 10 times all the way through throughout the con. Oh, and I really liked the Russia. Just sayin'. Because I like Russia. B]

SATURDAY.
Oh I might be getting some stuff mixed up, but..Im er, pretty sure on this stuff. Saturday I went out as Drunken England pretty much all day again. I did wear the military outfit a bit, but I had much more fun in the union jack boxers. And Im pretty sure that half the con will remember me. I ran up to so many random people and told them that I loved them, that they were amazing, and that they were sexy. There were just so many epic costumes that I couldnt help it. :'D Oh, also had cosplay chess rehearsals. Which I was totally late for. I had gotten confused on the times because I'm a major DERP WHORE. Me and my drunk America had more shenanigans and I also met up with some more epic people. OH, I met an England who watches my videos on youtube. I LOVED HER MASSIVELY because she was super adorable and she had a super adorable America, Spain and Romano with her as well, and not to mention a totally SEXAY France WHO FED ME, so I love them massively as well! <333 I seriously loved these guys. They were TOO CUTE, I was ready to die. I wanted to stuff them in my suitcase and take them home with me. BUT BACK TO THE EVENTS AT HAND..I believe this might have been Friday, actually - I lied. (Being there since Wednesday really threw me off with times.) Anyway, the little America was actually cosplaying Ciel. She was really tired and sore, so I 'babysat' her while her England went to the Hetalia photoshoot outside. I entertained her, and she was so cute I was pretty content myself. xD And she said that I gave her her energy back! 8D I was pleased! And we pranced around gaily together when England, Spain, Romano and France got back.

Later that night - Saturday that is - I hung out by the 18+ Hetalia panel line. I mainly hung out with the panelists, but I did run around promoting Warsaw. 8D WHICH BTW - I met , who I LOVE. Her youtube videos are full of SUCH WIN. She was really nice and put her scarf on me, having me promote Warsaw, as previously stated. She was a lot of fun and her Lithuania was really quiet, but quite adorable. AND LATER ON SUNDAY, she told me that I was her coolest subscriber on youtube or something to that effect. I NEARLY DIED. :'D!! I hung out there until they were about ready to go back in then I migrated back to the Midtown Hotel. Fun times. Fun times.

SUNDAY.
COSPLAY CHESS. YES. I had a lot of fun with all the other participants. And everyone seemed to enjoy me getting pantsed. Which, Ada allowed to happen during the actual performance. YES GAIZ, I GOT PANTSED BY PRUSSIA. OH! OH! And a totally amazing Ciel gave me a fairy wand, which I will cherish FOREVAH. HE LET ME KEEP IT. I was so excited. You have no idea. And she was super cute, too! Oh my goddd, so many cuties at this con. I really wish my suitcase were big enough for them all.. And btw, I am so not a creeper. Just sayin. B| Don't listen to what anyone else tells you. It's a lie. Just like America thinks the Vagina is. (<--hurr,insidejoke. But if you can piece it together, I'll love you long time.8D) ANYWAY, Cosplay chess went well. I had a lot of fun and I GOT TO COME BACK AS A PANTLESS, ZOMBIE ENGLAND. SO EPIC, RIGHT? I was almost as excited as I was when that Ciel said I could keep the wand. HURRR.


OKAY, so I know Im missing a lot of stuff. I met so many epic people. SO MANY. And I cant remember when it all happened. But I really loved hanging outside the Artist Alley with all those sexy Hetalia cosplayers. The Nordics really made me happy - especially the Norway. Because she loved England more than America. ;D And the Spain and I totally had some sexy fan service goin' on. I jizzed myself. OH OH, and I met SUPER CEREAL GERMANY. Oh god, I loved you. I LOVEDED YOU SO HARD, with your face of super cereal expression. And Waiter England. You were so crafty - I loveded you too! :'D

ANYWAY, lots more happened, yes. But Im so sore and Im actually SICK now, I think. I barely ate or drank during the whole con, so I guess it serves me right. But I cant type anymore right now. Maybe I'll come back and add stuff because I really havent even covered the half of it all. BUT I LOVED YOU ALL, and I really hope a lot of people remember me because I remember a lot of people. And I definitely ran around in Boxers a majority of the con, with my fat thighs and a giant 'easy access' hole in the crotch just for you guys. <3 Because everyone seemed to really love me as Drunken England.

Im hoping to attend either ANEXT or Otakon next. I've been offered to go to both, and if I can go to both, I so will. I will most definitely be bringing along with me Drunken England again. I'll be rockin' them Union Jacks. SO HARD.

Again, lots of nice people. Loved my roommates. I had a fabulous time! :'D If I forgot to mention you, Im so sorry! I didnt really 'forget', I just am too sickly right now to go on about it all. ; A ; Im kinda dying over here, ya knowwww? But just drop a comment/note if you saw me and YEAH. 8D I gave my Facebook to a lot of people, too, so I'm going to check there next.

Sorry for a long, boring report! But I'm so dead. I hope everyone else had a great time at AB, too, though.

Long story short, I've got no internet. At all. Im using my step dad's laptop right now, which he'll be taking as soon as he leaves. Which btw, he left my mom. They're filing for divorce soon, I guess. And we're moving out to an apartment(Just me and my mom and the two little children) because we can't afford the house anymore since he took his clothes and walked out. Among many other things.

And I have to listen to my mom crying every day and my little 4 year old sister and 6 year old brother (Half siblings, technically) asking "Where's daddy?" all the time. It's kind of heart wrenching. So yeah. Needless to say, Life isnt at it's best right now.

I might possibly have to go to a different school, too. Which sucks, because Im a senior and I've only got a few months left..It's pretty crappy to transfer to a new school at this time of your life. But..I guess some things can't be helped. :/

I'm sorry to everyone. I'm sorry that I can't be around, I apologize to everyone who Im letting down. Especially my close friends who I talk to on a daily basis, and my roleplayer friends who I've left hanging suddenly out of nowhere. I really do apologize.

Merry Christmas, everyone, though I know it's a little late. Sorry, but I hope and pray that you've all had a better one than I have. I could rant on and on about how much my life is sucking right now, but I think I'll spare you guys. xD (Besides, I know a few of my friends who are having just as much, if not more of a suckish time right now, too. So good luck to you guys, you know who you are.<3)

Anyway, I'm out for now.
Sorry, again.

I'm a bit depressed and I really just have to let it out somewhere, I apologize.:[

So I was dating this boy named Anthony. I dated him for four years and I really did love him with all my heart and soul, you have no idea. But towards the end of our relationship, things started getting really bad and rather abusive I suppose one might say.(I still dont like to admit it, but yea..it's true.)

So after attending Anime Boston and having so much fun cosplaying and meeting new people (which he hated me cosplaying with "other people" and thought cosplay was stupid in the first place..) I decided it was time for me to let go of our relationship and move on, I figured it would be for the best. It was hard for me to tell him it was over and I realized if I talked to him at all I wouldnt be able to do it, so I simply stopped calling him and to my surprise, he didnt attempt to call me or get in touch with me in any way, and I havent talked to him since May.

To this very day, I admit that I still have feelings for him and I love him. I mean, we dated for FOUR YEARS and he was my life. He was my first relationship and my first EVERYTHING, I traveled from Massachusetts to Las Vegas, Nevada to meet him. It was the happiest thing I'd ever done in my life - and I dont regret it one bit, nor will I ever.

But today, I knew I shouldnt have done it..I had resisted doing it in the past few months so many times. But I couldnt stop myself, and I looked at his myspace today. I was devastated to find that he apparently ALREADY has another girlfriend and she's quite cute. It hurt me a lot to see this, he told me if we ever broke up he would be done with dating for a long time; which granted, I didnt believe to be true anyhow, but I was hoping he would have at least tried to get in touch with me or wait a bit longer before replacing me..I mean, I understand he's free to do as he pleases, but..I just was hurt to see him apparently madly in love with some other girl so soon and I'm still in love with him, though im trying my best to move on.

Am I just being stupid? Probably. But it hurts. And I wish I had someone else to call my own now, I really miss having someone to say "I love you" to, and even when I was with Anthony, I realized I had been interested in girls...and now I think I'm going to pursue getting a girlfriend who is into the same things I am - namely cosplay.

Now I wonder. Do you guys think it's a bad idea for me to try to find someone else right now? I feel finding someone else might make me happier and I really do want someone to call my love. But on the other hand, I wonder if I'm being selfish and out of place? I dont know.

Please help me out guys. Note me if you think it more appropriate.

OH MY GOD! Im sore, tired and blistered! But Im totally THRILLED!

My first con experience was AMAZING!!<3 The highlight of my experience was MEETING MY IDOLS! BUT...i'll get to that in a moment. I'll give a rundown of my con.<3


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Friday:
(My Cosplay: Roxas)
It was pretty amazing! I got snatched up by a Leon cosplayer, who was absolutely amazing. She helped me out and took me on as her "con daughter" and watched after me until i was comfortable enough to go off on my own.^^ I thank her lots.<3

Afterwards, I met up with my friends who go to school with me who cosplayed Blossom, Bubbles, and Buttercup. We walked and such, got pictures taken and took pictures and such.

I broke off from them later and then met up with an amazing Phoenix Wright cosplayer, Luxord cosplayer and Sumomo/plum(chobits) cosplayer who i tagged along with for awhile. I actually danced with the Phoenix Wright cosplayer at the ballroom dance lessons, she was really cool about it, even though i failed hardcore at dancing.xD I followed her to her hotel room the with Luxord and Sumomo, and we chatted. We went to go to the dance but I couldnt get in because OF EVERYTHING, i didnt have a blazer. But whatever. I went to the rave later anyway, with my powerpuff girls, and stayed until 1:30ish. It was really funny because people thought I was really a guy, and said "That guy has way too many girls", as they were all grinding on me and such.;D (LUCKY ROXAS, eh?)

Saturday:
(My Cosplay: Roxas)
BEST DAY EVER!!!! I had left my bag in the Phoenix Wright's hotel, which had my money in it. I by luck found the sumomo and luxord who kindly took me to her hotel room and returned the bag safely with all money accounted for.:3 We chatted and headed out. Then at this point, i ran into the most amazing thing ever!!

I RAN INTO MY IDOLS!! And they let me tag along with them.^^ They talked to me like I was a good friend and it made me feel special.xD Mar Mar was very kind for inviting me to join along.:3 And the two cosplayers who arent in the Afterlife group, but we're rooming with them and such, we're amazing too! Demyx was super cute and playful, I really wanted to squeeze her and not let go.xD And Axel/Saix was amazing!:'D When she was Axel, she even let me hold her hand and gave me a kiss on the forehead a few times, and put her arm around me while we watched the masquerade.<3(Noone has to know it was just cuz she was cold.>__>; ..or was it?;D ) It made my inner akuroku fangasms squeal with ecstasy.xD

They even brought me to dinner with them, and I got to talk to them lots. (Or listen...I was a bit too shy to talk too too much.) And after that they let me come to their hotel room and stay for awhile before I decided to head back to my own. Which Mar Mar so kindly walked me back to where I was familiar with, because this was my first con and I was lost.D':

I was locked out of my (friends) hotel after that. I sat around, after banging on the door, assuming they were still at the rave..until about, 2am. After awhile, i banged harder and yelled my friends name. Finally buttercups mom opened the door and let me in and I had to sleep on the floor without pillows or blankets because everyone else was already dead asleep.xD What a way to end the perfect day, eh?

Sunday:
(My Cosplay: KH2 Kairi)
Another awesome day! I woke up and walked around. Everyone wanted my picture, surprisingly. O_o But it made me happy because I was so proud of the costume since I made it myself!<3

At around 10, I got to meet up with my idols again.^^ They let me tag along for their private photoshoot. Damn I felt so special.xDDDDD hahaha. I got some of their numbers too, so now, I can die happy.;D YAY!xD

Then I had to leave them and go home.:'c That made me sad.>___<;

But overall, it was the best experience in my life! I really had fun, and i'll never forget meeting all the people I did, especially my amazing idols - it was like meeting and being special enough to hang out with some super amazing famous actors/actresses!<333

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Thank you everyone, for making my first Anime Convention a great memorable one. I hope to see you all again soon! And I may possibly go to Otakon if I can this year, too! (I doubt it, since hotels are so expensive..:/ But maybe I can room with someone..who knows.)


BTW, my amazing idols(Xigbar, Lexaeus, Marluxia, Larxene): afterlifeusec.deviantart.com/
The Amazing Axel/Saix: arcadiaeclipse.deviantart.com/
The Amazing Demyx: pezzidge.deviantart.com/

My muscles ache, i havent walked this much in...never!D: So im off to bed now! Good night everyone.<3